One day I'll fly away, leave all this to yesterday

last_princess @ 2006-09-15T23:26:00

2006-09-16T06:41:13Z

*though it's a bit late, there seems to be a new package on Rufus' desk, although how it got there is a question in and of itself*

*Inside the package just so happens to be a multi-layered cake, although it's made so that it won't just fall over while being pulled out of said box, it almost looks as if it had been made by a professional cook, though it's clearly not considering the cute little designs (i.e. chibis of Tent, Malus, Pooka, and a chocobo or two) all over said cake and a note attached to the package*

Dear Mister Rufus...sir,

I'm not sure if you are keen on celebrating birthdays around here, but I decided that I had to make you a cake anyway because where I come from, birthdays do not go uncelebrated! ...but if this is out of line just let me know and I won't do it again, cause I know some people don't like to celebrate birthdays and that's fine, my mistake, but if it is I'm really sorry and I'll somehow make it up to you, promise!

But we made you a cake! :3 It's got three different kinds of cake inside, german chocolate, white and this type that I've never cooked before that's reminiscent of sweet cream, though I'm not exactly what it is. But it's good, promise!

And I didn't let Squid touch the ingredients this time, so there's no alcohol in it, promise!

I hope you like the cake! We both worked really hard on it, so please, enjoy it and your birthday!

Your friend and coworker,

Kairi and User :D

[Private Journal]

2006-08-14T06:46:15Z

...I'm being watched.

But at least I have Malus and Pooka for the time being. They'll keep me safe till Riku gets home. I hope he comes home soon. I'm so scared.

All the doors and windows will be locked until they come home.

[Private Journal]

2006-08-03T08:59:01Z

...I've been feeling sick the past couple of days, journal. I just, in the middle of the night, woke up with a stinging pain throughout my body, like I was being torn apart from the inside out. I'm kind of worried about it, because Riku hasn't been home for awhile now, and the aching won't go away.

I really wish Sora was here now. That way, we could go home and not have to worry about this stuff anymore. I'm starting to get scared.

I want to go home.

[Private to User]

2006-07-10T05:50:24Z

I'm soooooooooooooo sorry, User-chan! I was sleeping when you called and before I could get the return number, Pooka deleted the message.

;_; Any way I could make this up to you? I feel horrible for not being there.

[Private journal]

2006-07-07T00:17:53Z

...I heard noises from Riku's room last night that somewhat bothered me. I couldn't get to sleep for some reason and soon enough, I heard him talking to himself again. I guess Ansem could be acting up again but...at the same time, this time it just sounded so different. I worry about him so much, but I find I can't get anywhere near him without him just giving off this vibe of...well, like he has better things to do than talk to me.

...I think I need to go see User or Reno about getting out of this apartment. Pooka needs to go outside too. He's getting restless, and almost all of Riku's blindfolds are gone.

*Ignore the fact Kairi is still comfortable enough to leave her journal out in the open, despite the fact people could easily come and read it*

[Private Journal]

2006-06-27T13:41:38Z

...I had a nightmare today. It's the first one I've had since the Saix one awhile ago. It was so weird...I had this harsh pain in my chest, and before I knew it, everyone around me was leaving me. I wasn't the Kairi they once knew or something, and that I was nothing but a witch. Even Pooka left me, and I was all alone for the longest time. And then the darkness came and changed me into something else and...

Well, before I saw what it turned me into, I woke up.

I hugged Pooka for a good half hour crying to try and make myself feel better, but nothing's helping. I think I'm just going to go cook stuff for awhile, that might help. I haven't been to see Rufus so I might have to ask Reno if I can see him sometime soon. That would be nice...well, as long as Saix isn't there.

...now that I think about it, I wonder what he was doing there in the first place?

last_princess @ 2006-06-25T07:26:00

2006-06-25T14:28:03Z

*is sitting on the couch, staring at her cleaning job, which is already mostly finished for being only up an hour* *softly pets Pooka who's lying on her stomach*

...hmph. I'm bored now. *Sigh*

last_princess @ 2006-06-21T21:36:00

2006-06-22T04:44:17Z

A list is posted on the fridgerator for all to see in Kairi's neat and rather pretty handwriting.

To-do list for the week!

~Unpack and get settled
~Tidy up apartment
~Get Squid to show me around
~Train Pooka not to chew on the furniture
~Train Pooka to keep his barking down
~Train Pooka to not pounce Malus every time he sees him
~Train Pooka to stop eating Riku's blindfolds

And sure enough, in the nearest trash can, there's a small pile of black blindfolds that looks as though they've been chewed to pieces except for those small remnants.

:D

2006-06-17T06:03:46Z

I got a puppy! A puppy all my own! :D! I've NEVER had a puppy! Gramama never let me have anything but a fish. But I have a PUPPY.

...I've named him Pooka, after this movie I saw when I was little. Hehe, he's the cutest thing, too. ^^ He's got the big long ears and the stubby tail. He's adorable!

Now, to go play with him some more!

...

2006-06-05T21:09:44Z

Is it wrong to hope that they'll just show up at my door and decide they can finally stay home and everything will go to back to the peaceful days that we used to have before? ...or am I just setting myself up for failure?

...I think all these rainstorms are getting to me.

Raindrops on roses...[Private journal]

2006-05-31T10:16:10Z

It rained on the island today. I love when the summer storms happen to come in. It's always so refreshing after a long winter and allergy filled spring. I think everyone's suffered from a strain of the flu this season. I have never really made so much soup in my life D: But at least it's over.

I love the sound of rain outside my window. I came home to pack and have enough to last me when we finally do leave. Whenever Riku'd get back from whatever he's doing now.

...ever since we...you know, we've become more distant. I don't understand why he's being like this though. Maybe I did something wrong. He's just grown apart from me, and I worry we'll never be able to be close like we were again. And if we find Sora and come back home...what then? Things aren't going to be the same, but they're not going to be horrible, right?

*headdesks* Maybe I'm just worrying about this too much. Selphie did say I had that as a weakness...but there's nothing else to do but worry about it. Gramama's left again (at least I have the liquor cabinet key >:3) and Selphie's trying to hang out with Tidus and Wakka again.

Heh, I wish I was on the other island right now. One time, we actually got caught there during a rainstorm. I remember crying for awhile before Sora managed to comfort me before Riku found someplace for us to stay for the night. I just remember Sora looking as scared as I was for a moment before taking care of me...I miss him so much.

I think I'm going to go sit on the patio for awhile and just watch the rain now. It might calm me down.

[Private journal]

2006-05-28T10:22:23Z

Hey journal...

It seems Riku finally found someplace else for us to stay. I guess that's nice...I do want to get off the island and all, so it is a welcomed blessing. I want to see other places, I'm so tired of this island.

And yet, I find myself feeling...hurt. I don't really know why, but it just hurts at the fact I'm leaving. Not like a homesickness but because I think that there's something I'm vastly overlooking here.

But we need to leave. I keep getting chills that Saix might be around, just watching and waiting for the right moment to kidnap me. Then again, that's probably my overactive imagination at work. :3

I wonder if Riku really wants me to help look for Sora. I wonder if he even thinks of me the same way anymore after we...probably not. I feel so awkward when around him now, cause he's just always...I dunno. Just so different now that we've been there and back.

I just want to get out of here and find Sora. Maybe things will be normal then. Maybe.

Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you...

2006-05-24T10:02:21Z

Kairi smiled as she sat on the edge of the treehouse, dangling her legs over the edge as the warm summer wind blew her hair into her eyes. She didn't mind, however, as she kept her eyes on the moon above, a smile on her face. Something in her just told her things were starting to go positively from here on out. Only a bit longer, and maybe she'd be off this island, in the moonlight in some other world.

And then Riku and I can look for Sora...and then we can be together and happy again, right?

She glanced to the bottle she had beside her. How many of these had she sent out to other worlds at this point? The princess had lost count a long while ago...but it kept her happy and optimistic. With a grin, she took it and threw it as far as she could, the bottle landing far in the water.

"To other worlds, then."

With a yawn, she slowly got up, stretching and heading back into the treehouse. It would be comfortable enough to sleep in for the time being. Just a few more nights, and maybe something would happen. Her heart told her so.

...sigh

2006-05-22T09:06:20Z

Destiny Islands have become rather...dull. I don't like it here anymore. Sitting on the beach of the other island is rather comforting for the time being. I think I might start sleeping here now that it's summer vacation...

Heh, I guess I was right along with Sora and Riku when I said I wanted to see other worlds. Maybe not my real home in particular...but somewhere else. Any place that's a bit more...livelier than here...

...The stars are so much prettier through the palm trees.

[Journal time]

2006-05-05T15:54:16Z

...I haven't written in you for awhile, have I now? Almost thought I was done and finished with you, didn't you?

Something always brings me back to the island...memories of, anyways. The littlest things can just make my heart remember and then...well, we won't go into that. I'm sure Riku might find this journal absolutely amusing if he found it. I remember when he first found one of my journals and he read everything to Sora...I cried the whole night. But the next day, they returned it and just smiled to me...they were so cute and sweet and kind...

GAH! I need to stop crying! D:

Heh...Riku hasn't been around for awhile now. I would get worried about him if I didn't know he could take care of himself, y'know? I still miss him. I guess I miss a lot of things. I don't want to live in the past, but I can't let it go either. Hehe, I guess that's what happens when you forget your best friend...not to mention all the memories concerning him in general and then suddenly randomly get them all bad.

Yet I still feel empty...like I'm missing something.

It's so empty around here again. Even gramama has been out a lot recently. I really do wonder if Saix's intentions just somehow include me losing all my friends, cause if it is, he's succeeding at it greatly. I just wonder what he can even do with my heart if he doesn't seem to have the hearts of the other princesses...

I need to stop overthinking the situation, that's what I need to do...I just need to get my priorities straight again, that's all. I need to find Sora and bring him home and the same goes for Riku! >:3 And then I get to tell them the truth...ugh, stop crying, Kairi, there's no point in it! They won't know for some while yet, if I even decide to tell them...

Yeah...if I ever decide to tell them.

...I think I'll try and make something, just in case Riku ever stops by. Heh, that's getting my hopes up, isn't it?

*there's a slight unreadable scribble at the bottom before she sets it down on her bed, shutting the door behind her as she leaves the room to tend to her gramama, leaving it basically open to anyone who wants to read it, should they show up*

la la la

2006-05-03T00:26:27Z

*slowly heaves the few books that she actually has for Axel into the living room, setting them on the end of the table and hoping that the table doesn't break from just the weight of them*

Hmmm...I think that's all the ones he needs...and dinner is ready, I believe. *glances towards the kitchen*

Alright, I think everything's done then. *smiles and folds arms, looking about the room for a moment before heading into her bedroom, grabbing a book of her own to read while she awaits his arrival*

...

2006-05-01T06:48:15Z

*happily hums to an old lullaby as she sits on the beach, making more little thalassa shell charms without a care in the world, puppy leaning up against her as she sits there, threading another shell on*

Hey puppy, any idea when Riku's coming back? *she pet him on his head a bit, puppy rolling over and Kairi petting his tummy*

...

2006-04-29T22:12:03Z

I can't believe you, Reno. I'm hurt. No more Cajun food for you. ;_;

So...

2006-04-28T08:12:20Z

Since everyone seems to be having a stressed out week, I've been working all day to make something to cheer everyone up so...

*reveals table with tons of different types of foods and desserts*

Dinner for everyone! :D

...

2006-04-27T14:33:56Z

I had a really bad dream last night. Saix had captured me and...he took me and made me watch as he killed Demyx and Reno and Sora and everyone I knew and loved. And he somehow changed Riku into him or something, cause he was all dark and shadowy, much worse than when he tried to attack Saix on the beach back in Twilight Town.

...I don't want to go back to sleep anymore. I should get up and maybe make breakfast for gramama but I'm scared of the fact Saix could be there waiting for me or something. He just scares me so much...

And I have a bad feeling that today isn't going to be a good day at all.

o.o

2006-04-26T01:49:56Z

It seems my personality has a way of attracting some fun and interesting people. Hehe, I met a person who happens to work for Rufus, and he's really nice and amusing. Kinda like a big brother, considering how he acts half the time. Squid is really funny, although he did almost ruin my first batch of cupcakes. They wouldn't bake for a bit, but I finally got them done. Rufus will like them, I hope. He should anyway...I made him two batches to cheer him up, one that Squid almost ruined and the other without Squid's help.

Now, I just have to get there to give these to Rufus and I'll be good. :D

For Rufus-san

2006-04-22T04:22:42Z

*conveyed via note on his desk*

Rufus-san!

I thought you would like a cake and since I had some free time today, I made you a cake. Riku helped me get all ingrediants for a German Chocolate cake, cause I heard it's a favorite of yours. I hope you like it! ^_^

~Kairi

*a rather nicely made cake is also on his desk, sitting next to the note*

...

2006-04-19T08:05:57Z

...I didn't want to leave. I really didn't. But, there wasn't much of a choice otherwise. Riku was in the situation he is now because of me. I don't want him to end up like Saix and become lost to the darkness. And he says he's doing it all because he cares for me as a friend, and that he'd do it all over again, just to make sure I was safe.

...But has he ever thought that maybe I wouldn't want him to? If we could go back, I wouldn't want him to give into the darkness, just to see other worlds, just because of me.

Heh, I've been thinking too much lately. I think I'm going to head back to Hollow Bastion, my real home, and try and live there. I was going to look for Sora but...hehe, he'd be better off going back home with Riku. This is for the best, I know it is. I love both of them too much to see them hurt anymore. I have my memories of them...that's all I need. And they have those dolls...well, at least Riku does. I hope he finds the ones I left for Sora to give to him when he does find him. That way, we're always in one another's hearts, even when separated.

I should've made one for Demyx. That would've made him happy, I'm sure.

Hehe, I'm going to be fine. That's what I keep telling myself, anyways. I have to be okay, I have to be strong for them to move on. I have to be. I will be. I promise.

La la la...

2006-04-14T02:32:35Z

Hehe, hey Demyx, when you get a chance can you possibly give this to Riku? I thought he might appreciate a letter or two inbetween visits. *places the letter on a table before walking out*

Hey Riku!

I know you're busy and all and that we don't get to see each other that often, so I thought I might start writing letters so you don't have to be alone all the time! Well, not that you are, considering the dolls, but you know, so you have something to look forward to. Unless, of course, this isn't allowed or something...I don't want you to get in trouble with Saix or anything.

Speaking of Saix, what does he have you working so hard on anyways? He can't be that busy all the time, can he? He's kinda scary though...he just always makes me feel like...I dunno, like I'm just a tool in whatever he's doing. I'm not a person to him, just a princess, just a heart with legs that he's using for whatever. I dunno how you can stand him...I guess I could learn to deal with it if it was for your safety or Sora's. But otherwise...I dunno.

How's Demyx doing though? I'm worried about him. I really don't want to lose him as a friend, just like how I don't want to lose you or Sora...I just don't know about him though. He scares me sometimes, like when he took my heart...Don't be mad at him for that though, it wasn't his fault. At least, I don't think it was.

I'm rambling, aren't I?

I think I better leave you to your work then. I'll try and get you letters every week or something, I dunno. Depends on what I can scrounge up around here in Twilight Town. Oh, and you should meet Hayner, Pence, and Olette. Hehe, they're really nice! Plus, it's kinda like the three of us when we were together on the island. They're really fun too.

But I'm done! I'll write you another letter soon!

Miss ya lots!

~Kairi

turns head

2006-04-12T05:25:02Z

Well, they're finally done. Two dolls for Riku, two for Sora...*soft smile* So then we'll never be alone again, even if we're separated.

*glances around before putting her finger to her lip, thinking* ...never thought about how to get it to them, though.

One day I'll fly away, leave all this to yesterday

last_princess @ 2006-09-15T23:26:00

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[Private to User]

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last_princess @ 2006-06-25T07:26:00

last_princess @ 2006-06-21T21:36:00

:D

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Raindrops on roses...[Private journal]

[Private journal]

Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you...

...*sigh*

[Journal time]

la la la

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So...

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o.o

For Rufus-san

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La la la...

*turns head*

...sigh

turns head